Last night I attended a free intro memoir writing class put on by Gotham Writer’s Workshop. They were holding two nights of free class sessions to introduce their new season. One of the points we went over was ways to trigger memories; among them, revisiting old habits or routines. Makes sense. How often do u visit your hometown and get deja vu from HS days?
As I arrived at Penn just in time for the 8:36, grabbed a tea and a brownie (cheesecake brownies from Au Bon Pain are DELIC!) and headed down to the track, I had major deja vu.
There I was, leaving the city after a long day, feeling dirty and knackered, with a junk food dinner substitute, joining the overworked suits whose regular late nights add a commuter feel to the post 7pm departures.
It was PwC all over again.
And suddenly I understood completely how repeating old habits could bring back memories… It made my smile.
I remembered those late nights (the 8:36 didn’t even really constitute as a “late night” in some cases) and how drained I felt plopping down on the train, and getting my laptop out to finish whatever I had been doing in the office.
Then I recalled the nights I’d plop down and get my laptop out to work on personal stuff—grad school applications, stories, blogs. And I felt the excitement of embarking on a new path well up inside me.
I had been clueless: I had NO idea how to enter the writing industry; the possibility of writing book was unimaginable; and the need for career satisfaction was a long-off dream.
Yet, I realized, I DID IT!
I’ve landed myself a writing job; I have a WIP draft draft saved on my HD; and I can honestly say that I like going to work and feel fulfilled in my contribution to society.
It was such a long series of baby steps that I didn’t realize just how far I’d walked. It definitely wasn’t like walking England’s coast to coast (yeah, I did that too), but the ups and downs were just as treacherous—and just as mesmerizing!
Even so, I’m glad to be on steady ground now. I think I’ll hang out here for a while 🙂
(While blogging this original entry from my phone on my morning commute, I learned how to delete an entire field of information. It’s easy really, just hold down the ‘clr’ button. And for extra kicks, do what I did and don’t save it first…Sweet!)